I am my on my own.

I may have the best people in my life but I will work hard to be better than who I was by mothering the troublemaker in me, by consoling the frightened child in me, and by taming the dementor in me.

I haven’t been in my best self lately. I mutter bitterness out of the blue even at the slightest bit of discomfort. Drop by drop, my tears come running down my cheeks like an instinctive reaction towards any disruption of peace and order. I tried to reach out to the person I thought would be […]

What if…

What if… Every seconds spending it like couples who’ve known each other for a lifetime is just a time spent to build you up just to fall hard? What if… Trusting more means awaiting a more painful impending doom experience. What if… We’re just here for temporary need for companion rather than partners for life. […]

Step on it, girl!

26 years. 1395 miles. 2 heart aches. And another impending… doom? The benefit of innocence was long taken. I am no longer subject to any excuse. Wasted millions for nothing. Kin’s hair are greying hopefully out of nothing. Those wrinkles showing more vivid as days go by. The misery of being away might be comforting […]

Until It’s Time for You To Go.

Life begets art. This song has become the song of my heart. I desire to fall deeply at rest and in love with the person I am with. We talk often. We communicate about life’s challenges and how we can improve ourselves as individuals. But the more I am getting to know him, the more […]

Two decades and a half

Two decades and a half. My juvenile self had never known. Making wishes earnestly with eyes closed, lipsed pursed in yearning, and hands clasped together in prayer; thinking that one’s life could bloom rent-free like a colorful flower after the long nights of winter. Two decades and a half. The society deem of it as […]

Somehow I must have forgotten

Somehow I must have forgotten, How it feels like living with a tad less of life’s burden. To worry about others more than myself. Somehow I must have forgotten, How it feels like having to ask for permission, When I have gotten used to the freedom I enjoy without restriction. Somehow I must have forgotten, […]

A reminder.

09-18-2020 It’s been a year. Every day you continue to fill your schedule with things that might matter to your present. For some time, you’ve built a routine that has made you a lot better than you were. However, in just a blink of an eye, something pushed you back to square one. Needing. Yearning […]

Daily Dose of happiness: A family far from home

What is a family?

Doses of Happiness and Healing (Day 1): The Beginning

To this day, she’s still afraid. But now, she’s willing to live again.

A Letter for myself: The Power of Commitment

Dear Rue, To enable intrinsic and extrinsic metamorphosis, you need to COMMIT. May it be to yourself, to your commitments, and to your priorities in life. Commit. Stop thinking otherwise. And don’t forget to let God work his miracles. xoxo, Rue of the 11th Jan.

He suggested, I begged not to listen. He changed, I dare not look. He promised, I didn’t believe… It’s what you did that made me change It’s what you do that had turned me into an emotionally dysfunctional wreck. It’s you who saw my wings. Thanks to you I decided to fly… away from you.

I got your message.

“Riiiing” The space that could make or break us resonates through my ears as I await your answer “Riiiiing” Seconds tick by like dozens of minutes have gone by. “Riiiiiing” Still you haven’t picked up and anxiety sets in, pestering my mind with pessimisms I don’t need for the day. “Riiii-” And suddenly the gap […]

Her

A room in someone’s heart will never surmount the space in his life he empties for someone else.

Nothingness: A State of Instagnated Potentialities

My understanding of nothingness put into words. It may seem empty, but it’s not.

The Great Perhaps

What if this is what we all need. A time out. Could be temporary, could also be all for good.

Still, I am grateful.

Haven’t posted on a while because 2018 got a hold of me. But here I am, grateful… still.

That someone…

Hear me out.

Enlighten Me.

For the yearning hearts and wondering minds: Is it supposed to be too much?

I am keeping us.

And yes. I am, in fact, in love to a man I never thought would come. How rare is it for a complicated woman to fall and try to stay in love?

H A P P I N E S S

Be your own sunshine. Become the best version of yourself.

The road not taken

Don’t fear. A soul that is lost will soon find its place somewhere, and people will look up on you once you get there ☺️

How to have a good relationship with yourself this 2018.

Friendly reminders just to jumpstart your 2018.

12, 000 miles

A complicated love affair, no. A battle between desire and distance in itself. Love and destiny. What is there to make out of it?

A poem that’s written for those who have fallen to someone who’s way beyond their reach, literally.

Too much…

I am not telling you to yield caring, but I’m here to remind you to be wise when giving it all away. Invest on whom or whatever’s worth it of you, not the other way around.